Can't you see me?

WOWIEZ

2004-10-02T02:30:46Z

It was so good to see EVERYONE from brookville tonight!! It brought back a lot of memories and everyone is growing up!! Reflecting back on some good and not so great times but it all worked out at the end. Hm, I haven't writting in here in like forever this last month has been WEIRD! So much happend. I don't even have time to put it on here. I'd just wanted to say I love my brookville people! Heha

LONG TIME

2004-09-01T01:40:54Z

I guess I better start writting in this again..Hm.. First week of school.. yeah.. it's as bad as it sounds. heh. First day of school I got lost.. I tripped up the stairs and great junk like that and I was like late for every class. Today I did pretty good if I do say so myself! I was on time to just about everyone of my classes but my PE class b/c I was waiting on Josie since I don't know how to go to the PE locker room :( I'm such a loser.. But yeah. I've been doing homework for like 3 hours.Well, I've been on here talking ya know. So yeah. Heh. I'm so freaking tired! My back hurts soo bad I can liteally feel the knots in my back. It's from my bookbag, stress, and being so tired!! Hm.. but yeah that's about it!! I guess if I can remember I'll write in here.

cant_u_c_mah @ 2004-06-21T22:46:00

2004-06-22T02:48:07Z

We try to take it slow
But we're still losin control
And we try to make it work
But it still isn't the worst
And I'm craaazzzy
For tryin to be your laaadddy
I think I'm goin crazy
LOL wow, a BEP moment couldn't help it :^)

cant_u_c_mah @ 2004-06-19T23:21:00

2004-06-20T03:25:17Z

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UGh

2004-06-20T03:06:40Z

BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED.. that is all I can explain this day as.. I'm so bored i could cry.. I've done nothng at all.. I want to go shoppin' so bad!!!!! :( I don't kow what is up with me I can like go through emotions so fast it's like one min I'm happy then I could be sad then start crying or w/e ugh.. that is what I feel right now. Mostly b/c I'm lonely..I see everyone with their boyfriends and girlfriends and I'm just sick of it.. ugh.. :'( That's bothering me also one of my friend I swear it is either we don't talk or he'll just go hay got to go. I mean what is up with that? I mean If he doesn't want me talking to him then he should tell me str8 up I'm not down for that crap.. either you want to talk to me or not.. ya know? GRRRR~!~ And if ya hate me tell me gosh.. There are somedays where I wish things were the same and there are days where I'm glad I started my life I guess I could say over ya know? hm..Anyways.. Tomorrow is fathers day.. yay? lol My dad is coming home he's been in the studio and on the road for a week so yeah I'm ready to see my dad.. Blah.. I don't know really what else to write.. there is nothing going on in my life to really talk about! Maybe later.. Love ya.. me

MOO!!

2004-06-18T19:29:17Z

Do your cheeks hang low
Do they flap like a ho
Can you poo out a log
While bouncing like a frog
Can you jump in a tree
While you take a nice pee
Do your cheeks hang low!

Hay ya'll, ERICA MADE SOME MONEY!! Yay!! Yeah, I cleaned up my Nana's house I got like 25 dollas so I'm doing good.. but I've got to save it so I'll have money to get my nails filled in again in like 2 weeks =) lol.. Anywho.. I think I'm going to Putt Putt tonight or the movies it depends on if it rains or w/e ya know? OR OR OR I could go to the mall ugh.. but I don't want to spend my money LOL.. It's diff when it is your money and when it isn't ya know.. but yeah I think I'm going to start getting ready.. Love ya.. OH OH Jewshua!! I herd that song letters from home!! So good!! lol..

What'sup lonely?

2004-06-17T19:04:42Z

Blue
I'm gettin' kinda close to you
Like a shadow I can't lose, hey...
You've been hangin' with me every day,
Now you're gettin' in my way.
I know you understand me,
But don't you think that maybe it's time to move on?
What's up lonely?
Seems you're my only
Friend who wants to share my pain.
Tell me heartache, what's it gonna take
For you to leave me alone today?
Just when I think that you're gone, yeah
You're in the mirror looking back at me.
What's up lonely?
Lonely, mmm...
Sometimes
I wish you weren't by my side
Can't you find another shoulder
'Cause I, I wanna leave this broken heart behind
We're both wastin' too much time
Find someone else to rain on
I'm really gettin' tired of singing this sad song
What's up lonely?
Seems you're my only
Friend who wants to share my pain.
Tell me heartache, what's it gonna take
For you to leave me alone today?
Just when I think that you're gone, yeah
You're in the mirror looking back at me.
So, what's up lonely?
Don't wanna give you a reason
To hang around anymore
You won't be hurtin' my feelings
If you find another broken heart you can lean on
Gotta go, gotta move on
Gotta go, gotta move on
Just leave me alone
What's up lonely? (What's up lonely?)
Seems you're my only (Hey...)
Friend who wants to share my pain.
Tell me heartache (tell me heartache), what's it gonna take
For you to leave me alone today?
Just when I think that you're gone
You're in the mirror looking back at me.
So, what's up lonely?
Gotta go, gotta move on.
Gotta go, gotta move on, yeah...
What's up lonely?
Seems you're my only baby, yeah
(Friend who wants to share my pain)
Tell me what's it gonna take?
(Tell me heartache, what's it gonna take?)
Just leave me alone

-> That is soo much how I feel right now that is the only way I can explain it.. But yeah anywho, I just woke up like an hour ago I stayed up till like 4 this morning BLAH lol.. Oh Brandi I got your comment YOU FREAKIN' SUCK lol just messing I love you but b-ville sucks since they didn't have to take an stupid History Sol.. Jus goes to show you whos better (JF baby) LOL Spoken like I've never been to b-ville before. But I love ya'll guys!! And I shall be seeing some of ya'll at Putt Putt Friday if I can go and if it doesn't rain. Oh, I finally got my nails done last night YAY!! but my nails really hurt like a mother they took the fake nail off and so the powder junk they put on is like str8 on my nail!! OWIES!! Anywho..I'm gonna get me some energy food! I'll write in here later. Much love.. Me

FREAKIN SUMMER SCHOOL!

2004-06-16T20:06:12Z

Gosh.. I just found out I have to go to summer school b/c of History I'm guessing they didn't tell me what I needed to take but I'm pretty sure it's History b/c I didn't pass the Sol the frist time and the sol the secound time was harder and they told us then we only missed the 1st sol by 1 or 2 ?ions!! GR!! Makes me soo freakin' mad. It's July 13th through the 30th GRR! I've got to go to the clay aiken concert that I paid for way back in April which is on the 21st.. but I guess this is what I get since I was like I'm ready to go back to school but only to see my friends no for some crappy sol I have to take for a 3rd time GRR!!!!!!!!!! I'm going to go hopefully get my nails done maybe that will make me some what happy.. Love ya .. me

Lonnggg day

2004-06-16T03:22:20Z

What a day.. I only got like 3 hours of sleep last night then I woke up at 5 to go to harrisonburg with my sister and mama to oreintation for JMU for my sister.. we met up with this Rachel and her parents b/c they wanted to see the apartment. We hung out with them pretty much the whole day they seem to be pretty cool... JMU is really cool I wish we had a place like Taylor "down under" it's like a hang out. It's awesome we hung out there while Tiff and Rachel were meeting with their advisers.. that took a long while so I was just hanging back playing pool..but yeah after we got all that stuff done we went to show Rachel and her parents the apartment and then we went on our way home we tryed going 81 all the way home but it was rainin' really hard and truck drivers well some can be idots LOL.. so we went up the mountain for like a hour which sucked!!! I got soooooo sick!! I'm feeling better tho! Anywho, I'm going to try to get my nails filled in tomorrow *crosses fingers* lol. I might just get it painted again since I don't have the money to get them air brushed I knew I shouldn't have gotten my weekly cd (Montgomery Gentery) =) Man, 10 more weeks till school starts YAY! Sorry like this whole 3 weeks have been boring and I just want to see my friends again ya know? Or atlest have some football games start early!!!!!!!!! Hehe. But yeah.. Today I was really thinking about what I wanted to be when I get to collage and I've narrowed it down!! I either want to be one of the following (lol)... 1.Professional shopper. 2.Singer/Actress ( I think I'm going to join the drama club this year) 3. a elementary teacher 4.Professional designer .. so yeah that is good right?? Hm.. LOL.. who knows... who knows.. I jsut want to do something I will love to do.. and I know I love to shop and I know I love to sing now acting I haven't really done anything in that.. then elementary teacher I love kids or I love designing I could live with mostly anything like that.. but yeah I'm getting bored so Yeah I'm going to go. Love ya!! Me!

LaLaLa

2004-06-14T21:09:52Z

Hay ya'll.. I'm so tired!! But kinda hyper at the same time ya know? lol. Ericas lil way of workin'! lol I might go to the movies tonight just to do something. I'm so freakin' bored this summer! I'm ready for school to start!!!! lol Ugh, I've got to take a foreighn lang. this year.. spanish (UGH) I so don't want to take one but it's required! But oh well.. I can't wait to see Jessica again even tho I might see her tonight but I mean at school hopefully me and her will have some classes together. But yeah.. anyways.. I'm trying to make plans so I can go to the movies so I'll write in here later. Love ya. Me

BLAH

2004-06-13T20:30:20Z

I'm so tired!! Today has been a long day!! Last night I had a really bad anexity attack and I had one in church.. luckily I got over it!! Anywho, After church ::thinks to self:: church is soo much longer now that we started earlier BLAH! lol sorry moment. But yeah after church we went out to Chop house and then Lowes then came home and cleaned and now mama and daddy are at lowes again to replace a chair for out side we have new outside furniture.But yeah, I've got to baby sit (MONEY,MONEY,MONEY!! MONEY!! lol Putt). I've got to get my nails filled in and I need a pedicure my feet look horrible LOL.. but I need to go shoppin! lol I can't wait till my sister goes to collage it will be just like when she went on the road for a year I'll be going shoppin' every week!! WONDERFUL TIMES! LOL. Anywho, My loverly Jessica is on!! I must talk to her!! lol. I'm out. Love ya! Butch!! Aw, I miss Pookie :'(

Emotions

2004-06-13T06:06:00Z

So many things going on. I guess I'm so angry today is b/c I'm tired! UGh! It's been one heck of a day. I need to get happy again b/c I'm really startin' to think going back in to my depression again! No good at all! I was lucky the first time I had my friends to snap me out of it and stuff but I don't know about this time! Since It is summer I've been thinking a lot more and I'm thinkin' of the stuff that got me in that state in the first place well some of the things. Ya know about my other friends I feel forgotten and the people I've grown up with like don't remember me and ya know you grow up with these people just so they can forget you? I mean that is hard for me b/c alot of those people I've grown really close to and it feels like I did it for nothing and I mean I still have my other friends that I talk to all the time but I just don't feel like I'm apart of them anymore I feel like I'm a lil annoyin' girl that they feel bad for so they talk to me. Ya know? And I guess what really bothers me the most is that I see some of my close friends from there like movin' on with their lives and I feel like I'm suck in the past and I don't know how to get out! It Sucks!! I feel liek I've got no where to turn!! It's like a maze like you have to find your way out but I'm stuck in that place where I don't know where to go and I'm just stuck!! But Ya know It just seems like no ones knows how I feel no matter what they say they don't know what I'm going through and they don't know what I've been through. These last 2 years have been the hardest and the quickest! And within these last 2 years I've done a lot of growing mentally and I'm still growing mentally! I've got to find who Erica is. And who I am now I don't think is Erica. Yes, I want to be friends with everyone but that's not going to happen b/c we have so many haters yes, I want to be free I want to be me but that's so hard I'm livin in a shell!! I just don't know!! It's like my words and how explain stuff doesn't make since but it does. I don't kno! I'm so confused! To make things worse my cousin is callin' the house so I've got to check caller ID b/c my mom doesn't want me talking to him and I don't really want to talk to him I don't think I'm ready to talk to him. But I have realized that I know what he did but also it isn't all his fault but most of it is! It's all about the choices you make. Which makes me scared to go to high school b/c I know I'll be surrounded by drugs and drinking and ect and heck I am now but I don't know I'm worried that I might get pressured in to something I don't want to do! and then I'm going to end up ruining my life by drugs, drinking, or sex. Ya know I just don't know I guess later on I'll feel better but for now I'm just sad...I'm going to go.Love you, Erica

Another Journal..

2004-06-12T02:19:23Z

Hay ya'll, Ya'll know I've had soo many freakin' journals but this time I'm going to stick to it!! Lol..Anywho I'll write more after I'm done playing around with the settings! Love ya, Me